Two days after the deadliest mass shooting in U.S. history, I am still at a loss on how to feel, what to say. As someone who supports both gun control and the LGBT community, it is easy to feel powerless ... helpless. Fear, because mass shootings have become part of the fabric of American life. Anger, because there are not any easy answers and no bridge over the gap -- more like a gaping chasm -- of ideology. And then there is that dark and bitter part of my soul that says if 20 dead children did not change our culture, nothing will. I don't like to dwell in the darkness, and luckily I have the choice not to. Fifty devastated families do not have that choice today. The darkness came to them this weekend.

I can teach my children to love, extend acceptance, I can even teach them to practice proper gun safety. But I cannot protect them from angry men who have lost their humanity, or never had any to begin with. How do you reason with evil?

The blog is rarely not upbeat, and it feels disconcerting to end without something positive -- a quote, a story, a prayer. But my heart is heavy with worry for our future, while at the same time I can't help but ask:

How did we get here? How did this become our new normal?

We have to remind ourselves that there is still good in the world. We have to be the good in the world. Or all will be lost.


  1. Well said. I feel like we can do little but teach our child, show love and tolerance to one another and pray. The hardest part is that we have to continue to keep living when the shock and pain can be consuming. The police are working so hard on finding the why and though I grew up always wanting to know the why, what, where, who and how first...now it doesn't seem to matter just that so many families and communities are hurting. If I could hug them all, I would.

    1. I have been comforted by the outpouring of support and love from people wanting to help the survivors and victims' families. It is a reminder that there is more love in the world than hate, as much as it seems like the opposite is true sometimes.


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